Well, I said I would follow up with how I competed on Saturday. I did not hit a PR. I ended up jumping 4.11m and was disappointed with that result, knowing I was capable of jumping higher. We can still learn from this - and that is I still need mental sharpening. I got a little ahead of myself subconsciously getting excited about approaching another PR bar.
I know I will pick up where I left off, which is a good spot. I am healthy and learned a lot this season. I wasted a lot of opportunities through indoor and practicing. If I had instead taken those opportunities, I would have had more experience in my tank for later this season and probably would have realized progress sooner. Instead, I can say that I PR'ed from every approach inside 12 steps.
Looking back at last year versus the year before - I hate to admit this, but I think having a training partner would have pushed me through any fear or doubt. I competed how I trained and there was a lot of slack in my practice. Having someone there reminding you to keep bringing your best is something that was taken for granted. I should be lit up by competition and not shy away.
Not realizing your potential can be frustrating. We put in so much effort - mentally, emotionally, and physically into this one thing. When the results don't yield right away, it can either push you forward to keep cracking away at it or it can shut you down. Which do you want to be?
I am building a new vision for myself and how I want to act in every situation. I am
transforming into a total badass. Yep, that's right. Every time I step on the runway, it will be clear that I am ready to put on a good show. People will have to jump really high to beat me. I will carry myself with so much confidence, spunk, joy, and determination. People will say, "wow, she is going to jump really high. It's
only a matter of time and it's right around the corner."
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